Kara is sick. Probably the most sick she has ever been. Fever, vomiting, lethargy. Can't sleep, can't eat. It's terrible. And it makes me so sad. I have thought many times over the last few days that I would take it from her if I could. That I would happily have the flu if it would save her the suffering (not like the flu is real suffering, but it certainly isn't pleasant).
Also, in just the last few days, I read about a 2 month old baby who was diagnosed with leukemia, a friend of a friend lost her 3 month old to an infection, a father of 4 died in a tragic car crash, a friend was rushed to hospital with heart pain. Man, I am just getting sadder by the minute and found myself in tears several times today just thinking about it all.
I haven't finished processing all the thoughts that are mulling through my brain (and I recognize that much of how I am feeling is induced by two sleepless nights!), but what comes out clearly is this: my life is not my own, my children are not my own - they are on loan from my heavenly father, our days are short and opportunities are fleeting, so LOVE. Love my sick girl and care for her the best that I can. Love my husband. Love my baby boy. My days are not wasted if I love with all of me.
Thank you Jesus for each of these that you have blessed me with for now. Teach me to love them how You love them. Bring peace to the hearts of these families who are suffering loss ... Lord in your mercy, hear my prayer.
Yikes...thats a lot of sadness. I hope Kara starts feeling better soon. You do an excellent job at loving ALL of your family. With baby on the way I find myself thinking about you and your family a lot and hope that I can be as good a mother as you are. Love you!
ReplyDeleteThanks for the encouragement Em. You're going to make a great mom - you already are!
ReplyDeleteamen sister.
ReplyDeleteHow is everyone feeling now?
Wise words from a wise woman.
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